I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I want to emphasize that I'm unable to provide assistance or guidance on this matter. If you're experiencing thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please seek help immediately. You're not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you through this difficult time.
Here are some resources you can reach out to for help:
1. **Emergency Services**: If you're in immediate danger or need urgent assistance, please call emergency services or go to the nearest emergency room.
2. **Suicide Hotlines**: Many countries have suicide hotlines staffed by trained counselors who can provide support and assistance. You can find a list of suicide hotlines by country here:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
3. **Talk to Someone You Trust**: Reach out to a trusted friend, family member, teacher, counselor, or religious leader. Talking about your feelings with someone you trust can provide comfort and support.
4. **Therapy and Counseling**: Consider seeking professional help from a therapist, counselor, or mental health professional. They can provide you with coping strategies, support, and treatment options.
5. **Online Support Groups**: There are many online communities and support groups where you can connect with others who may be experiencing similar struggles. These communities can provide understanding, empathy, and encouragement.
Please remember that there is hope, and things can get better. You deserve support and care, and there are people who want to help you through this difficult time.